88. i QUIT coffee for 21 days & realized I had no idea what my NATURAL energy felt like

i genuinely NEVER thought i would be the person to stop drinking coffee 😂

i love coffee. like LOVE coffee. it was part of my morning, my workday, my little walks, recording podcasts, doing readings, long drives… everything lol.

but i've also dealt with headaches + migraines for most of my life, and recently they had gotten to the point where i was getting them constantly. and somewhere along the way i got into this cycle of drinking a ton of caffeine, getting a headache, taking Excedrin (which ALSO has caffeine lol), feeling better and then doing the whole thing over again.

so a few weeks ago i finally decided to see what would happen if i stopped.

and you guys… i feel SO different.

i talk about the first few days of caffeine withdrawal, the brain fog, being absolutely exhausted at my desk 😂, my relationship with addiction + dopamine, sobriety, potentially getting tested for ADHD, and a story about me having an absolutely ridiculous meltdown because Jorge wouldn't stop at Starbucks lol.

but the part that has been the most interesting to me is realizing that i didn't actually know what my natural energy felt like.

i thought i was someone who needed naps all the time. i thought i was naturally super go-go-go, impatient, always needing to be doing something. i thought coffee helped me have energy.

and now i'm realizing my actual baseline is SO much more chill than i thought it was.

i still have energy. i still get shit done. i'm still ambitious and excited and very much ME. 😂 but i don't feel like i'm constantly spiking and crashing anymore.

and that realization turned this into something way bigger for me than just quitting coffee.

how many things do we do over and over again for YEARS and eventually just decide "this is who i am"?