Some Exhaustion Brings Some Closure

Hey everybody, the Lunar Eclipse was last night, around 12 hours ago, and I had been anticipating this for a while. The good thing about being an astrologer is that nothing comes as a surprise, but even if you know the relationship between the planets, their archetypes, and the power that they have, you cannot really predict. The whole scope is not about prediction, but it’s about understanding the meaning and the potentials, which is the reason why I follow the stars, or they follow me, whichever way you want to see it.

It’s been building up for a while, and I can really confirm that the release is here. I have felt it tremendously through a feeling of sorrow, loss, endings, and dissolutions. I actually would like to stay with this feeling for a couple of days if I can, because it’s within the space that I have enabled to sense and feel it in my body. I can really look back and say, “Oh my God, this was coming for a while, and it was being built. It had its crescendo, and now it’s just in the pure state of dissolution.” Not everything is going to be washed away, but certainly there was a lot of cleansing in many ways.

What I feel, other than the sorrow, is that there was a lot of confusion. There were veils that were taken off, and I could see a lot of ugly things. At the same time, I did not want to feel defeated. I didn’t want to feel depressed, like anything with a D: defeated, depressed, desolated, disillusioned, desperate.

I wanted to be able to feel more attentive to this cycle. I can go 18 years ago and tell you what was going on, or even 36 years ago, but I don’t want to do that exercise to try to figure things out. I want to stay here. I want to stay with the uncomfortable feeling that I had, this morning a little bit after the eclipse. I woke up in the middle of the night, and I had sort of apnea. I couldn’t really breathe, so I had to sit down and listen to Gregorian chants, which I will share below. This is the beautiful Psalm 91 sung by monks in Latin.

I had to run some errands today. I had to go to town and do some practical things, like a power of attorney kind of document, so I had to go to a different part of town. I don’t drive, so I had to leave the island of Miami Beach and go to an old part of town called Coral Gables. I just did what I had to do and sent these documents to my brother, there are many things that are being finalized in my family, and they have been building up. I didn’t realize how much I had been carrying. Just to put it in perspective, I’m going to say, from the physiological point of view, (German New Medicine which I have spoken a couple of times in this space.) When I did the immersion in Vancouver with Tiziano, when I came back, I started having a terrible, terrible pain on the right side of my neck, it was unbearable, and I had it for many months.

Looking at it from a different perspective, I was saying: what is it that I don’t want to see from another point of view? What is it that I’m stuck on that I don’t want to see? I started seeing, “Oh, I have to have more openness. I have to calibrate more,” and I did.

Fast forward a few weeks. I was at the big pool in Flamingo park where I sometimes go, and in a clumsy move, I hit my diaphragm and my ribs on the right side. The pain was unbearable. I couldn’t do hypo-pressives. I couldn’t really swim anymore. It was like three weeks of just waiting for it to heal. It’s completely healed right now, that was also a lesson of patience. I was thinking to myself, “What is it that I’m overholding?” The thorax and the diaphragm really help hold the organs in the body. I was feeling, “What is it that I’m holding in my family? What is it that I’m overprotecting that it is not for me to protect?” That was something to look for.

The funny one (it’s just not funny, haha, but it’s funny): a few weeks later, It had been raining in Miami for a while, so I couldn’t really sunbathe as much as I like. I decided to take two days off and just go to the beach