I Fell Off (It's So Over)

I can't deny it, so let's explore what it means, how it happens, what it feels like, and why it might be... great?

In this episode, I share my struggle over the past few years, after having kids and experiencing significant creative and professional challenges. I reflect on the challenges of consistent creative work, the mental and emotional toll having it derailed, and the blessed but weird fabric of life as a father and husband. Despite feeling despondent and losing momentum in my projects, I discuss how this period has given me a valuable reset, akin to a kind of 'ego death.' I explore the liberating and ultimately beneficial aspects of falling off, the importance of accepting defeat to start anew, and how this crisis clarified my true goals and motivations.

(00:00) - Opening Up: I Fell Off

(00:53) - The Pain of Falling Off

(02:39) - Ego Death

(05:59) - Parenthood

(11:35) - Liberation Through Accepting Defeat

(17:55) - Mental and Financial Issues

(18:53) - What Writing the Book Has Taught me

(20:06) - The Challenges of Restarting

(22:59) - Confirmation of the True Calling

(24:42) - The Indie Scholar Vocation