Episode 110 - Addiction

Raw and unfiltered: I betrayed the trust of my fiancée when I relapsed with alcohol. I hurt her so deeply and shattered her trust to the point where we are no longer engaged and it feels like all hope is lost. I'm afraid, confused, sick to my stomach, and utterly hate myself for doing it. It doesn't help to understand that it was because of my addiction, my dependency on alcohol which changed my mindset, my values, and who I am, since I still made the choice to drink in the first place. I blacked out, went completely on autopilot, and did something I would never do ever in a sober state. Right now this trauma is only a week old and involves people that are for now actively in my life. Please listen to with respect, and if you are out there struggling with your own compulsive behaviors or addictions, please seek help. I've started attending meetings and have scheduled a therapist. It isn't too late for me, and if you too are struggling, it isn't too late for you either. As always, thank you for listening. - Denis Baldwin