Trusting God Through Unanswered Questions

Two weeks. And still, every time the words are spoken aloud, the weight of them does not lessen. A three-year-old son. Type 1 Diabetes. The insulin shots and blood sugar tests and doctor's appointments that are now simply part of what a normal Tuesday looks like. Sharing it with more people does not make it hurt less. It does not let the baby eat ice cream like other kids.

No one teaches us what to do when God's plan does not feel good. Knowing that all things work together for good does not immediately ease the ache of what is happening right now.

Psalm 51:8 is not a tidy verse. It is wrung from genuine pain, from a place of acknowledging that bones feel crushed, and still, somehow, asking for joy and gladness to break through. Not pretending the crushing did not happen. Not performing peace that is not there yet. Just honesty, brought to God, with a trembling request that He might be found in the middle of it.

Two things have already helped in this particular season. First, letting the feelings be real. Sadness, anger, frustration, without dressing them up or making them sound more spiritual than they are. Because that is the only way to bring the true condition before God rather than a curated version of it. And second, counting blessings until exhaustion. Not to balance out the pain, because there is no balancing a child's chronic diagnosis. But because God's tenderness keeps showing up in the details, a parking space right in front of the emergency room, a nurse with a young cousin newly diagnosed, a Christmas tree a little boy obsessed with trees could visit whenever he wanted. To refuse to name those things would be to deny God the glory for a continuous outpouring of care in the hardest season.

Even with gritted teeth, even when it does not make sense: great are You, Lord.

Ponder Tonight

Honest emotion brought to God is not a failure of faith. It is the very posture the Psalms model throughout Scripture, raw and unfiltered, brought to the One who can actually hold it.

God's tenderness shows up in the details of hard seasons in ways that are impossible to manufacture and easy to miss if we are not paying attention. Looking for those specific, small evidences of His care is not spiritual bypass. It is the deliberate practice of letting Him be seen.

Unanswered questions and painful circumstances do not need to be resolved before being brought to God. He meets us with them intact, not after we have figured them out.

Choosing God with gritted