"I Didn't Leave My House For a Year" | John Scafiddi Jr on Depression, Weed & Getting Your Life Back

He didn't leave his house for a year. Smoked weed, watched shows, and told himself he was fine — while his whole life sat on pause.

In this episode, I sit down with John Scafiddi Jr — co-host of The Journey podcast and founder of the clothing brand At War, built on one idea: we're all at war with something.

This isn't my typical recovery episode. John's story isn't about a substance taking everything — it's about the quieter battle so many men are fighting right now: depression, isolation, comparison, and a phone that makes everyone else's life look perfect while yours falls apart behind closed doors.

We get into:

* The two-year party run and the comedown that almost broke him

* Spending a full year inside — and what finally got him out

* Why "everything looked good on Instagram" while he hoped he wouldn't wake up

* Growing up Italian in Brooklyn where crying wasn't allowed — and what bottling it up cost him

* Being judged his whole life for how he looks vs. who he actually is

* Why he bullshitted his way through therapy — and why he's ready to do it right this time

* My own story: the bookies, Vegas, the $800K hole, and what gambling recovery actually looks like

* What legalized sports betting is doing to young men — the ads, the VIP hosts, the free play