We Lost Our Baby Boy: Grief, Love & Life After Miscarriage

We lost our beautiful baby boy at nine weeks. This is our story.

In this deeply personal episode of Anything Goes with Anna Rose, Ryan joins me to share our miscarriage story following our third IVF transfer. From the joy of seeing two pink lines and hearing our baby’s heartbeat to the devastating uncertainty of the scans that followed, we’re sharing what we lived through, together and individually.

Ryan opens up about his own grief and the helplessness of wanting to fix something he couldn’t. I share the physical and emotional experience of losing our baby, the kindness that held me through surgery, and why I needed time alone before I was ready to be held.

We also talk about grieving differently within a relationship, asking for what you need, and the comfort of connecting with people who understand your pain.

There is no neat ending to this conversation. Just love, honesty, and the hope that sharing our story helps someone feel less alone.

However early your loss happened, you don’t have to minimise your grief.

Content note: This episode contains detailed discussion of miscarriage, pregnancy loss, IVF, surgery and grief, as well as explicit language. Please listen when you feel ready.

Stay wild, my loves.