S2#055 - Why Sex With My Affair Partner Got Me Out of My Head, And What It's Actually Telling You

🌻This episode is taken from The Sanctuary - a private online community for women who’ve had an affair. Find out more and join today at https://www.alexcroxford.com/the-sanctuary 

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This is one of the most common experiences I see with women who've had affairs, and almost no one talks about it.You felt more alive in your body with your affair partner than you ever did with your husband.More present, more awake, more you. And now you're trying to make sense of what that means and whether you'll ever feel that again.In this episode I go there. Fully.

We're talking about sex, self-pleasure, the body, and what was actually happening inside your nervous system during the affair, because understanding that changes everything.In this conversation we explore:

why the aliveness you felt with your affair partner was real (but it wasn't about him)

what novelty, danger and aliveness reveal about what was actually happening in your body

why the good girl never got to have a body, and how that connects to everything

how early shame shuts down our sexual and creative energy

my own experience of realising, after my marriage ended, how completely I had been in my head during sex

what I did to begin learning my own body, and why it had to start with me, alonethe difference between involuntary embodiment (the affair) and voluntary embodiment (the work)

how to begin returning to the aliveness that belongs to you — without the chaos, without the secrecy, without the risk

The aliveness you felt is not gone, it's just buried.This episode is the beginning of finding your way back to it.